do he still??T_T

it reaLLy hUrts sO bAd!i CAn't heLp myseLf!i'm miSSing hIm sO mUcH!i Can't even feeL his presenCe..dO he stiLL LOve me??

we'Ve brOke Up Last apriL 18..and i'm the One whO brOke-Up with hIm..it'S beCaUSe my mOm dOesn't want hiM fOr me..mY MOm tOoK my mobiLe phOne..beCause Of it..and On that dAy..i feLt sO sOrry fOr myseLf..i feLt that i'm tHe onLy One whO'S fiGhting fOr OUr LOve..i had a thOUGht thAt whiLe i'm sUfferInG..he'S hapPy in his pLaCe..and didn't Care 'bOUt me at aLL..i saCrifiCed aLmOSt aLL..fOr him..i'Ve diSSapOinted my mOm..and Lied tO her..jUst fOr him!!(whAt've i dONe!)i hUrt my mOm..Over and Over..!!

my sister tOLd me that i'm nOt thinking..my emOtiOns we're COntrOLLing me..bUt i dON't wanna giVe-Up..!i wannA fiGHt!stiLL..it reaLLy hUrts!

when we broke-up..he promised me that he'll wait for me..'tiLL LifetIme..and i'm still hOlding oN tO tHAt vOw..bUt i CAn feeL thAT he's ChangIng..and i'm afraid that he miGht..i dOn't knOw what tO dO.. i haVE tO ChOOse!!everytime..we're taLking On the phOne..i CAn sense that hE's happY..whiLe me..dEEp inside..bLeedinG..='(

he said that no one couLd ever take my pLace in his heart..bUt i'm wOrried..tHAt sOOner..SOmeoNe miGht and wiLL tAke my pLaCe..i thinK he'S starting tO fOrget me..everyniGHt i'm CryinG..i waNt him sO badLy..i'm tryinG tO think thAt sOmeone wiLL crOss my path..thAt's mOre deServing for my LOve..thAN hIm..bUt i aLways feeL tHAT he's the One fOr me!!i'm sO tired Of it!it'S makin' me siCk!!bUt i CAn't stOp..thinking and LOving hIm..!

i wanna die.....
i CAn feeL the fire scOrChing Over and Over again...T_T